stupid words, grammatically errors

i don't know what i'm thinking about, it feels like hell when i know i can't even make it. I just need you to help me, one thing and i'll beg no more. but what? you can't even help me. Now i just need you to understand, but i know you won't understand. Or you might be saying that i'm the one who need to be understood. what's the matter with "understand"? a very simple word, but i know it's not that simple for you. i don't know what to do, i know i'm selfish but sometimes it's reasonably right to do. well, actually i don't think i understand what this is all about, all i need to know just please give me a chance. why you just never let me, it only takes one thing to done with and it's going to be over soon. you don't need to be worried. i am okay, even i know i'm not.